For those of you that have been following along, I have had a bit of a posting hiatus. Although I have been writing, it has been for myself as I had a pretty big emotional let down after the post on the 19th and really needed extra time to reflect and digest that post.
After some focused family time and celebrating my little boy's 3rd birthday, our family was hit with an unexpected tragedy. After finishing up a normal day at the office I pulled into my driveway when my phone rings. It is my dad. The sad reality is that almost anytime my phone rings and it is my mom, dad, or either of my sisters, my gut always tells me that something is wrong. It is programmed to expect terrible news because for so long during Henley's fight we were struck with bad news so often it became clockwork. For a long time I wouldn't want to answer my phone because I didn't want to know the next bomb to drop. It is 5 years after her death and my gut still tells me there is tragedy on the other end of the phone. It is usually wrong, but on Monday July 23, 2018 it was correct.
I picked up the phone and tentatively said, "Hello?" My dad was sad, holding back tears, when he informed me that Grant's dad was killed in an accident. Grant, for those that do not know, is my brother-in-law who is more "brother" than "in-law" and is Henley's dad. July 19, July 23. July is now a month that the Romine family just assume be wiped off of the calendar each year. Not only have they lost Henley, but now they have to face life without the rock that helped them through unspeakable experiences and brought joy to all of us.
Last week gave us all a harsh lesson in the fact that absolutely nothing in life is guaranteed and nothing says that life is fair. We have got to love on our family everyday and be kind to others because this life we have been blessed with is delicate and fleeting. We are never promised tomorrow.
I took on this Do Thirty challenge created by Casey Crouse in order to access the recesses of my mind in order to address some of the experiences that have impacted me most. That centered around the grief I ignored I was experiencing for almost 5 years. I have so much more to address and I am going to keep writing for myself and I will likely continue to share content intermittently. In the meantime, this challenge has impacted me greater than I could ever explain in a blog post. Thank you to Casey I have rekindled my love of writing, I have faced some of my biggest anxieties publicly, I have found personal growth and purpose, AND................................................................
Raised $3,500 for the Henley Romine BEElieve Foundation that will allow us to fund multiple "Buzz Around Indy" trips for kids fighting cancer. This money will allow us to provide a sick children and their families a way to forget their stresses and seize the day, knowing full well that we are not guaranteed tomorrow.
I am still accepting donations for another day or so, so you can click here if you want to contribute to this amazing cause. I had a goal of $3000, which to be perfectly honest, I thought was impossible. I only set it that high because when I signed up for the Do Thirty challenge, that number was suggested. Thanks to the current tally of $2450 on GoFundMe and 2 mailed in donations the total is at $3500 and I am stunned.
Thank you all who have taken the time to read any and all of my blog posts. If you are just joining, I hope you take the time to go back to the beginning and read them all. The fact that anyone reads is a blessing and I appreciate you all.