If you are reading this blog for the first time, I urge to to go back to my first post of my Do Thirty Challenge. As always, if you are able, please consider donating to my cause by visiting this page. I am trying to raise enough money to send at least 3 children fighting cancer and their families on an all expenses paid journey called "Buzz Around Indy" as part of the Henley Romine BEElieve Foundation.
Part III of the career posts included graduating from Indiana, moving to Iowa for chiropractic school, and the beginning of the breakdown of the root of the feelings of regret that permeate through my soul about my decision to attend chiropractic school. After days of writing and allowing myself to organize my thoughts, I have been able to pinpoint two major reasons the regret remains after over 6 years since I've graduated, despite finding my path within the profession that I am passionate about. The first point you got to read about me complaining about my student loans. I am well aware I am not the only one with loans, but this Do Thirty challenge of writing everyday was meant for me to sort through stresses and anxieties that negatively impact my life. Student loans are one that occupy a significant piece of the stress pie in my life so I appreciate you all listening.
Chiropractic is a peculiar profession and I don't necessarily feel like I am a part of it. I certainly don't relate to the "straight" chiropractors that often are the ones that give our profession that "stigma" we're all aware of. But I don't necessarily relate to the more updated version of a chiropractor either because the way I practice is, simply put, different. It often feels like I am attempting to create my own profession within the health community in Indy because I am literally the only provider in the state of Indiana trained in the treatment that I specialize in. This is actually something that excites me because every single day I get to change someone's life and because they experience something different, they tell someone else. I have been able to create an organic, grassroots growth, laying the groundwork for a bigger vision.
In Part I of the career posts I stated that there was a time in which I was certain I was going to leave this profession if I had not been exposed to a company that changed my paradigm. I was wrestling with my inability feel like I had an identity in this profession when one of my best friends from chiropractic school kept bugging me to look into the company he worked for. When I looked into Airrosti, I learned that they hire chiropractors for our training with the use of our hands and direct access to healthcare (no referral needed) and train us to become soft tissue specialists. Their mission was to train providers to positively impact the lives of their patients as quickly as possible. They taught their providers how to get results fast with a larger goal of impacting health care costs. It seemed to good to be true. Not to mention we were right in the middle of Henley's fight for her life against cancer, traveling around for treatment. Getting a job with this company would also mean we would have to move out of state as they do not have locations in Indiana. After a lot of conversations with my wife, I applied.
After my first conversation with HR I had an excitement that I had not had in years. It was as if this company was created for me. I knew that if I could get hired I would be able to find a purpose so I did everything I could to get hired. The hiring process was intense. 4-5 rounds of phone interviews, each one a make or break step in a gauntlet, and if you can survive, you "get" to be flown down to San Antonio for a live Discovery Day consisting of more interviews and a presentation that you are required to prepare.
I made it through each interview and eventually flew down to San Antonio for the last step in this 3 month process. I was nervous, but in control and ready. The entire day went amazing and at the end of it I was told that I should hear back within a week. I got on the plane to fly back to Indianapolis and I felt like my future hinged upon whether or not I got the job.
I will never forget the moment I stepped off the plane in Dallas during my connection from San Antonio on my way back to Indy. I turned my phone on to text Kelly when I noticed I had a missed call and a voicemail from a Texas number. I nervously hit play on the message while my body felt like it was shaking. It was Brenda from HR informing me that after I left it was unanimous that there was no point in delaying the inevitable. Instead of waiting a week, they wanted to extend an offer right away. I stood in the middle of the Dallas airport in complete shock. I could not believe it. Months of interviewing had come to an end and I felt as though I was just given a second chance in this profession. As my eyes began well up (damn allergies), I called Kelly and gave her the news.
Working for this company exposed me to an entirely new paradigm. A paradigm that got me excited to be in healthcare and gave me purpose. Instead of identifying as a chiropractor, I was becoming something different. I was beginning a journey.
A journey that has allowed me to work for an amazing company in Chicago along side 2 amazing family physicians, to open my own practice and specialize in the Fascial Distortion Model and become an instructor in my biggest passion in my profession life, work within a prestigious orthopedic group, and so much more.
It does not do me any good to allow regret to poison my soul when so much good came from the decision. One day, I'll donate a few organs and pay off my loans. And in the meantime, I am officially letting go of the feelings I have of trying to fit into a profession that I don't feel a part of. I am going to focus on being the best provider I can be. I am going to continue to build something different, pursue teaching others, and follow my passions within healthcare. One day, I will look back at the wake created by my decision to attend chiropractic school and there will be so many positives that came from it that all the regret will have dispersed into the abyss.